Thursday, September 30, 2010

~*Day 26 and 27*~

So I know I am horrible about doing these things on the day they're actually meant for. But oh well. You'll live. :P

Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
I actually have. When I was in high school. Now that I look back on it, I don't even remember why. But I do remember thinking about it. Hmmmm. I honestly have no idea why now. Must not have been that bad then. 

Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
I have no idea. I don't really have anything going well right now. My husband let me down - again, for the second time in less than a month - I got a 62 on my biology exam, I'm tired of my economics class, my friends are lying and hiding things from me, I'm away from my family ... the list goes on and on. 

But I need to stop whining and being negative. The best thing going for me right now ... I'm alive. And I do still have my family to keep me up when I just want to fall down and cry. I am alive and I am going to push forward. I am going to succeed. And things will get better. If not, I'll just become a hermit. 

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Today is the Day! (Day 25)

Today is the day! 
I am oh-so-happy! I went to be around 4:30 this morning (thanks Goob's work schedule and night shifts *insert sarcasm*) but couldn't sleep past 9:30. I found out my friend is having a little baby boy at the end of January (I'm secretly so jealous of her because I want a little baby boy, like, YESTERDAY!), there is a gym close by offering $1 enrollment and 1st month free, ANNNNNND (finally) we are putting an offer  on the house we love! Goob decided that the decrease of $15,000 and the seller paying closing costs was just TOO GOOD of a deal to pass up! :D (Click HERE to read my question/predicament about this house!) I am so excited about this house and am already planning where things will go, what we will do when we first move in, different crafty things I can make for it, and everything! I haven't been this excited since I got married! YAY!!!! So that is plenty of "news" for me to be super excited about today and I just could not sleep any longer! How are you today? Any exciting news? 

Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Well, I definitely haven't been in any life-threatening situations or had any life-threatening illnesses (KNOCK ON WOOD) in my life. So I definitely believe that I am still alive today because I have not fulfilled my purpose here on this earth. I do believe everyone has a purpose in life and that everything that is meant to happen will happen when it is supposed to. I'm still alive so I must not have completed my "duties" yet. :)

Tuesday Blog Hops

Today's theme is favorite songs.

 Half Acre by Hem. It's so random and I've never heard it before going to Ramblings of a fire fighting, crunchy, work at home mom's blog. But now, I LOVE it. It is so relaxing and peaceful. Exactly what I need during these stressful times. 

I Run to You by Lady Antebellum. I was on my way to work one morning when this song came on. It was before mine and Goob's 1 year anniversary/formal wedding and a time when I was under a lot of drama/stress from friends. I didn't think much of it when I first heard it, but I heard it AGAIN on my way home from work that day. Hearing it twice made me realize that I will always run to him and I will always be able to count on him. So I love it! 

To-the-TOP Tuesday


Here are this week's questions?

1.  List 3 words that remind you of fall.
pumpkins, orange, leaves
2. Do you wear jewelry often?
Ehh, not really. I wear my wedding ring, two pairs of stud earrings, and one other ring all the time. Other than that, maybe my watch but that's it. 
3. Do you like your toe nails painted or natural?
I like them painted but if I can't afford to have them done, most of the time they just go natural
4. Do you ever wear a hat?
Ugh! No! My dad wants me to keep a guy's baseball hat in my car so when I'm driving at night I don't look like a girl to people passing by - good idea, I just don't have any hats! Beanies for the winter are about as close to a hat as I'll get. 
5. Do you have someone that you talk to everyday on the phone?
I text my sister-in-law every day. And I try to email my mom everyday or call her every weekend. For the most part though, actually talking, no. 

Monday, September 27, 2010

~*Days 23 & 24*~

Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
I feel so bad saying it, but I wish I had stayed home to finish college. I moved to be with my boyfriend husband since he was stationed about 4 hours from home and I've fallen way behind on school. While all of my friends are getting their 4 year degrees, I'm just now a semester away from my 2 year degree. It sucks. I am happy to be with Goob, but I wish I was where I wanted to be in my educational career. 

Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
I'm going to be lazy on this one. 

I made a playlist for our wedding a year ago. My favorite songs for it were Because of You by Celine Dion and I Run To You by Lady Antebellum. I chose Celine's song because you are always there for me and I honestly believe everything I am today is because of you in some way, shape, or form. And Lady A's song was so perfect because when all else fails, we both know we can run to each other. I hope you loved the wedding songs and love these two as much as I do. 
Lil Bit. 

Monday Blog Hops

1. How many TV’s do you have in your home?
Two. We have on in the living room and one in our guest room that never gets watched. We have a cable box for it and everything but we don't watch it.

2. What is on your bedside table (nightstand)?
A lamp, a candle, and some dust. I did have paper towels since we just got a new puppy, but took those downstairs to clean up another mess.

3. How many pair of shoes do you own?
Wow. Probably 30 including some of my flip flops. I live in my Rainbows though and only wear the others when it gets cold or I'm going out somewhere that flip flops aren't good for.

4. Can you change a flat tire?
I understand the concept of it and the general idea of what you're supposed to do. But I don't think I could actually change it by myself. My car actually didn't come with a spare tire so I'd be stuck calling roadside assistance or someone that could help.

5. Do you prefer sweet treats or salty treats?
It really depends on what kind of mood I'm in. Most of the time if I'm craving a "treat" it's sweet though. Most of the time I only eat a little bit though - like the strawberry cake with strawberry icing I made the other day. I eat a small piece and am done. :)

Saturday, September 25, 2010

~*Day 22*~

Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.

Oh where do I begin with this one. I wish I hadn't moved out of my mom's house in 9th grade; gotten caught "with my boyfriend" in 11th grade; dated "Lifeguard #2" in 12th grade; moved instead of finishing college. 

Although I wish I hadn't done any of those, I don't think there is one thing I would actually change. I think my life would be drastically different if I hadn't done those things, but I also think they have shaped me and made me the person I am today. I hate that cliche "live life with no regrets" or whatever the heck it is, but I honestly look at every "mistake" I've made as a learning experience. ((Yes, sometimes it takes me two or three times to learn from it, but in the end, I learn from every mistake I make.)) So yep. That's it. 

Friday, September 24, 2010

~*Day 21*~ ((and a question))

Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
     Honestly, depending on how bad the fight was, I would get in my car and go to find her. I believe that friends fight and disagree. It is just the cycle of things. But just because we fight doesn't mean I don't care about her and would not want to know how she was after an accident. But if it was a bad fight and I had decided I couldn't be her friend anymore, I would probably contact her family and see how she was. But, I would probably feel bad and would still go to see her and apologize or at least see if there was anything I could do. I feel like if she had gotten into a fight, I would want to make things better and would go try to save the friendship. 

Now onto my question. What would you do if you were in my shoes? You see, we found a house about 2 months ago that we fell in love with. We were preapproved for the amount of the house and were comfortable with what our finances would be. But Goob decided he wanted to look around and see what else was out there. Well two houses were sold before we could put an offer in. So we decided it just wasn't our time and decided to just look into other houses to rent. And of course, now that we're not looking as much anymore, I get an email from the realtor asking if we would be interested in House 1 if it was $15,000 cheaper and we could get closing costs covered. (What?!? Are you serious?!? OF COURSE I want it. I loved it the first time and I still love it! I can see myself in that house and want to be in that house!) But now, Goob isn't sure about it because we had just decided that moving "home" when he gets out is an option again. 

I want this house!!!!! I feel like it is a sign this is the one. I think we should jump on it and we shouldn't wait to put an offer in. But I don't know how to convince Goob that now is the time and this house is perfect for us - even though he was so Gung Ho about it before.

What would you do?!?!

Fawk You Friday

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Well this has actually been a pretty good week. There isn't much to be upset about. But just like always, I can come up with at least a few. So FAWK YOU:

Houses For Sale! We found one we loved and decided to put an offer in on it, only to find out, someone put an offer in that was ratified THAT same day. So we found another house we loved and wanted to put an offer in on it. Just to find out, the SAME thing happened with that one. And then, TODAY, I get an email from our realtor saying the 1st house is available again! WHAT?!? Are you kidding me? So I got my hopes up and got my heart broken just to find out it could happen again? But the house is much cheaper and I still love it just as much as the first time. So now, because of you, I don't know what to do.

Marine Corps Ball! I want a red dress for the ball. But because you have been moved, again, I won't have the money/time to go out and look for one that I love. So it is most likely going to be between a couple of dresses I already own. If you would have just been scheduled for the normal time, this wouldn't be a problem.

My need to constantly be busy! I have been unemployed for a while and now that I am finally realizing who my true friends are, I have decided to occupy myself with crafts and blogging. But now that I am going to be working here soon, I won't have time for that. Or at least that's my fear. So now, I am considering a second job to keep myself busy. Oh I am going to have no life because of my constant need to be doing something!

Ahhhh, there are a few other things I could rant about. But I think this is good for now. The other things are minor and don't really require the waste of my time to type them out and talk about them. Hopefully next week will be better - even though this was a pretty awesome week.

Thursday, September 23, 2010

~*Days 19 & 20*~

Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
     So, I've been avoiding this one because I'm not really sure how to answer the second part. But now I am going to answer them both. As for religion, I have my faith and my beliefs and I will always tell people what I think whenever they ask. But I don't know too much about it and I feel like I should know more about it before I try to talk to people about it. I believe people have a right to believe in whatever they want and worship whatever/whoever they want. I don't want you pushing your religion on me and therefore I will not push my religion on you. However, I believe that this country was founded on certain beliefs and I think it should stay based on those beliefs. We have allowed people to come in and bring other religions and that is fine, but YOU CAME HERE. If you don't like sayings that have been on coins and in the national anthem and such for years and years, don't stay here. Go back to where your religion is the main one and things are based on your religion. I basically feel the same way about politics. I believe this country should get back to the beliefs it was founded on and the government should be a part of that. I am a republican and I believe abortion is wrong and the military is important. However, I am in school for business and taking some of the classes I'm required to have, I am learning that I do agree with several ideas that are more liberal - so I think from now on, I'll just vote for the person I agree with the most and if  it's a tie, I'll just not vote. Everyone has a right to their beliefs and their religion. So I won't force mine on you so long as you don't force yours on me. :) 

Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
     Ahhhh the typical drug/alcohol question. I think no matter how old people are, they are going to make stupid decisions when using either or. DUIs don't stop or really even decrease for age groups above 21. People drinking or smoking before they are of the legal age isn't going to change regardless of what the minimum age is. As for illegal drugs, people are going to do it regardless of whether it is legal or illegal. I don't personally take part in drugs and I'm not a big alcohol person. But I do believe that if people want to take part in them, they're going to regardless of the minimum age limit and the legal aspect of it. 

Think of Me Thursday

Week 5 of Think of Me Thursday!

It's as easy as 1....2.....3....

1. Follow your hostesses, Mrs. Mama Drama and Belly Charms
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2. Link to a post with the Think of Me Thursday button so your new visitors can say Hello!

3. Have fun, and Think of Us, and we'll be sure to Think of You

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Hump Day Naughty List

1. What time of day are you generally in the mood?
Normally in the evening. I don't know why but it just seems to always be around then. But when Aunt Flo comes along, it's whenever I get a glimpse of Goob being sexy - even though it never goes farther than that. Sigh. 

2. Have you ever had sex at work? Would you?
I actually have not but in my "line of work", it wouldn't be hard. Who is going to know when you're a nanny for small kids? Especially during nap time. So I guess if the opportunity presented itself, I would. 

3. Ever had a moment as a mom/wife/friend where you thought MAN I am a horrible mom/wife/friend and I just don't care right now? Explain.
I actually have thought this, a lot. I have gotten so used as a friend that I am absolutely tired of it. So I have gotten to a point where I just don't care what happens. And I've thought it from the wife point of view too. If I am going to clean the house and do the dishes and make dinner, you are going to respect me by keeping it clean or putting your dishes in the dishwasher. Goob doesn't do these things most of the time so I just don't give a crap when he wants to have sex or wants to watch a movie together or whatever. 

4. What is the sexiest thing you own?
Oh this is most definitely the nightie I got for our 1 year anniversary. I'm not typically a "sexy" clothing person. I'm all about comfort and functionality. But this little nightie is mesh, white, and very sexy. 

5. Name a sexual regret from your youth.
It's probably very cliche, but not waiting. I got lucky and snagged a guy that did wait and it makes me very jealous/embarrassed that I couldn't wait, but he could. 

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Yay! An Award!

I was gone all weekend and came home to find out I had received this award. :) Yay! Go Me! Raphael and Dawn over at Just Married with Coupons gave it to me and I must say - they have a pretty lovely blog themselves. Click on over to check out their "Hubby and Wifey Brain TeaZers" and lots of coupons they found for everyone! 

Here are the rules of the award:

1. Accept the award. Post it on your blog 
with the name of the person who has granted the award and his or her blog link.

2. Pay it forward to 15 other bloggers that you have newly discovered.

3. Contact those blog owners and let them know they've been chosen. 

My 15 Picks are: 

Belly Charms
Boobies, Babies, & A Blog
Design it Chic
Diary of a Devil Dog Wife
Ecstatically Pregnant
From Lazy to Lady
His Little Mrs.
I'm Just Sayin'
Just Hide the Dishes in the Dryer
Linda Loves
Make It and Love It
Mommy Katie
Nesting with Niall
New to Mom

Tuesday Blog Hop

To-the-TOP Tuesday

I don't know what happened last week. But I am back this week and looking to meet new people and read interesting blogs!

Thanks for stopping by! <3

~*Days 11 to 18*~

Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Compliments? Hmmm - probably my eyes. Or my skin. I have blue eyes that change between green and gray and have a nice cat-like shape to them. My skin is a pretty even olive color - thanks to my dad. :)

Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
That would definitely be my height. I am short. I know it. I don't need people to comment on it. But they do anyway. Therefore, I never get "complimented" on my height or my legs, or any of those things that tall people get. 

Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Kenny G - Your music is so soothing and comforting and I know I can be calmed down and relaxed by listening to it. I can be extremely pissed off and upset about things, but when I listen to your songs, I calm down and fall back into my own world long enough to get through it. Thank you so much for dedicating so much of your time into creating such wonderful music! 

Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Army Sergeant - You have hurt me and let me down in multiple ways. The most recent involving a friend of mine. I feel like you lied to me and to her and it's not fair to either of us. I thought you were better than that and never expected this from you. You've really let me down with this one.  

Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
My husband. Or fast food. We did the whole break thing a while ago but it didn't last long and I realized that he truly does make me happiest and I can't live without him. Fast food. Ah, I can't live without it. We were going to ban fast food to start being healthier, but it hasn't worked. It's everywhere. When I don't feel like going to the store to get food, just get fast food. When I don't feel like cooking, just order take out or go get fast food. It is the solver of all problems and I can't live without it. :(

Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Drama. I definitely could live without all the stupid childish drama. If you think I am doing something different than what I said to you, talk to me, not one of our friends. If I am doing something to upset you, talk to me, not one of our friends. If you hear something that someone else is doing, don't tell me about it, unless you have talked to that other person and know their side of the story first. I hate drama. I always have. I always will. Don't involve me in it - especially if it is about ME and you are supposedly my friend. 

Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
A book about how to treat your husband in marriage. It talked about making the husband and his wants the highest concern for yourself. Because (so it says) if you make him happy and do what he wants, he will do what you want to make you happy. I totally see that point and I try it on a semi-regular basis. But I am selfish and I believe that he is selfish too. Why should I make him happy all the time when he doesn't try to make me happy all the time? So it changed my views that he should be making me happy all the time and it doesn't matter how I treat him. I realized I need to make him happy if I want him to make a better effort to make me happy.  

Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Everyone is entitled to their rights. I believe everyone should be able to be joined with the one they love and want to spend the rest of their life with. But I do believe marriage is supposed to be between one woman and one man. 

Monday, September 13, 2010

Monday Minute & Meet Me Monday

Monday Minute

Another day to relax and just answer a few questions. :) 

1 - Who is your favorite childhood superhero? I don't remember having a super hero. I wasn't ever into those things. I was all about Winnie the Pooh, Tom & Jerry, Mickey Mouse Club House, and Blue's Clues.

2 - List something you have done for pure shock value. Hmmm, that's another one I can't think of an answer for. I'm pretty much myself about things and just kind of have a "whatever" outlook on things. 

3 - What is the most recent thing someone has said/done to you that left you picking your jaw up off of the floor. Our old roommate telling me he was going to be moving out in 30 days (after we'd been told he was staying with us until we left and after he'd told us he turned down a friend's offer to move in with him). Oh and then again when he blamed his quick decision about moving out on me. BULLSHIT - I did NOT put you on the spot so grow a pair of balls and man up to your selfishness.  

4 - Do you have a moment where you gained clarity about your life? Nope. I am still trying to learn who is in my life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. Therefore, I am also still trying to figure myself out. I'm still running through life without a clue as to what is really going on. 

5 - What are you doing to achieve your biggest dream? Getting busy! ;) My biggest dream is to be a mommy and a great wife. I'm doing great with the wife part, but the mommy part will come when the time is right. So I guess being patient is a better answer. :)

Making Friends Monday && Day 10

10: Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn't know.

Oh where to begin with this one? I think I know the answer to this one, I just am having a hard to accepting it and actually doing it. I think the person I need to let go is named Tina. I'm don't feel like thinking about all of the bs again though, so I'm leaving it at that.

Sunday, September 12, 2010

~*Day 9*~

9: Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.

Well, I'd have to say this is my high school best friend, Dawn. She was always such a good friend and we always hung out together. We both hated the drama and had the same values. But after living together at college and me moving, we have drifted. I'm afraid things will never be the same between us. This hurts and is scary to me because it seems like she is the ONLY friend that has never ever ever screwed me over or hurt me somehow. I miss her and still love her like a sister. I just wish we hadn't drifted apart....

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Saturday, September 11, 2010

~*Day 8 - With a bit of a Vent Session*~

8. Someone who made your life hell or treated you like shit.

HAHAHAHAHA!!!! I am constantly being treated like shit. So this list could be forever and a day long. But I guess to pick one, it would be a set of roommates my husband and I had. They were shitty people that wanted to take advantage of us and made our lives hell. I secretly hope karma takes a HUGE chunk out of their asses  and I have realized I am not roommate material and will NEVER have roommates again! :-O

Saturday 6 and Sensational Saturday Social

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  1. If you could break one law for the rest of your life and not get arrested, which law would you choose to break & get away with?
  2. If you wrote a book based on your life, what would be the most "shocking" revelation you made in the book about yourself or something you had done?
  3. Has reading a book ever changed your life?  Which one and why, if yes?
  4. Where were you on 9/11/01?
  5. Should marijuana be legalized?  Why or why not?
  6. Would you have a threesome if you significant other wanted to?
1. Probably speeding. I love to speed and it's not fair that I can't zip through traffic and enjoy the speed without worrying about getting in trouble! ;)

2. The most "shocking" revelation about my life ... hmmm, nothing really! I typically don't hide anything from people and the things that I do hide/keep quiet, are that way for a reason! ;)

3. At this point, no. I dedicated my life to Christ from going to church when I was 12 - didn't really read the bible. But my friend did give me a book to read that she said will change my view on things and will change my life. So we'll see. 

4. I was in 7th grade English class. My best friend and I used to write letters back and forth in a notebook that we traded between classes. She had seen it on tv and wrote about it in the letter. I don't remember seeing any video or hearing the news about it until I got home from school that day. Apparently our principal had told the teachers not to show it or talk about it during classes. 

5. I'm back and forth between this. I think keeping it illegal just makes its appeal so much greater. Like drinking, I think if it was legalized, use may go down. (I know once I turned 21, it wasn't as much fun drinking or getting drunk.) Although, people of the legal age still smoke and drink all the time knowing the consequences and do a lot of STUPID things. So in that sense, making pot legal would just mean less trouble the cops had to deal with. Taxes, general laws, and regulations would definitely still be necessary though. 

6. No. I wouldn't. I have asked him jokingly if he would want one and he said no. He's not the kind of person that would partake in a threesome though. 

Friday, September 10, 2010

Fawk You Friday

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This is a cool blog idea by Boobies, Babies, & A Blog and it is oh so perfect for this week. If you haven't been to her site, definitely check it out.

So let's begin!

Fawk you female body and periods. You were cramping and hurting and being completely exhausted for the past month. And you waited 47 days, yes 47 WHOLE days, to start the cycle again. This is horrible on your part because I want a baby and you misled me to thinking I was pregnant and this may be my turn. Fawk you!

Fawk you friends that let you down. In the past month I have been let down by 3 people I thought were pretty good friends. Two of them being just this week. Fawk You Friend 1 that was going to make one major transition in my life easy for once. I went against my better judgement and trusted you only to find out that you changed your mind and I was screwed again. And Fawk You Friend 2 who lied to me, told me you weren't doing something, and then I caught you lying AGAIN! You don't know I know what's going on, and it is going to stay that way, but you just fucked with the wrong girl. I am done giving you chances!

Fawk you marine corps! You make my husband's life hell and then he comes home absolutely miserable. Not only do you make his life miserable on a daily basis but in general. He wants nothing to do with this state because of you. This is horrible and I hate you for it because this is where I want to stay. I love the area we are in and the endless possibilities that are here. It is because of you that we fought this week and it is because of you that we disagree on so much stuff.

Fawk You week! I'm glad you're almost done. I'm tired of dealing with the bullshit you've brought!

~*Day 7*~

7: Someone who has made your life worth living for.

My husband. ♥ 

He has been everything I need and more. Yeah, sure. We fight. We argue. We disagree. But at the end of the day, I still love him with everything I have. I would do anything for him. He got me out of the town that I lived  in and gave me the opportunity to experience life on my own. I got behind in school but he is constantly encouraging me to keep going to to finish what I started. He has been there for me when the rest of the world has turned it's back on me. No matter how many times I yell at him or get mad at  him, he comes back to me (not the he ever physically leaves). He will always support me and be there for me and I know he'll never leave me. Now I'm not going to just do whatever the hell I feel like because I know he won't leave; I will always do my best to treat him like a king and make him the happiest man alive. 

So he has made my life worth living for because he has given me the ability to be a great wife (like I've always wanted to be) and will someday give me the ability to be a spectacular mom. :)

Needing Some Advice....

What do you do with a friend you've had a rough time with before and is now lying to your face?

See, I have this friend, Tina, who I have been really good friends with for a really long time now. But it has constantly been whining, venting, complaining, annoying to deal with on a regular basis. Everything is always about Tina and I can't go to her with my problems without her problems being thrown in the mix to seem more important. And nothing is ever going good for her, or so she thinks. There is never a positive side to anything and it's constantly "poor me". And see, a while back, another friend of ours, Katy, who just came into our lives a few months ago, decided to be very selfish and not be grateful for what Tina had done for her. So Tina was mad at Katy and told me she didn't want anything to do with someone like Katy. I was the friend Tina confided in and that was fine. I was happy about it, I know-totally horrible to say, because Katy was a bad friend and was everything I suspected. But one day, Tina told me she didn't want to be friends with Katy anymore and that I had been right all along. Then a week later, they're buddy buddy again. So needless to say, I talked to Tina and everything seemed ok.

Well last night, I may have found out about a conversation between Tina and Katy - about me!!!! Not only about me, but it was about how Tina wanted to give up on being friends with me and how I had been so mean to her about things. First off, I WAS NEVER MEAN! I have been calm and nice and respectful about everything I have said to her. I've gotten to a point where I'm tired of the bullshit and her going back and forth between friends. I am tired of her talking smack about Katy and others, but then running back to Katy and being buddy buddy again. Secondly, I spoke with Tina about this situation this morning (in no way mentioning I knew about the conversation) and was trying to see if she was going to lie to me yet again, because it has constantly been "what are you doing", "oh nothing", "wanna do something", "oh not today, I'm just going to relax" - and then I find out she's not telling me the truth. AND SHE DID! SHE LIED TO ME LIKE IT WAS NOTHING! I asked if she had been able to talk to anyone else, including Katy, about the conversation we had about everything or about anything that was going on and she said no she hadn't. WHAT A FREAKING LIAR!!!! The conversation made it clear she had been talking to Katy about everything. And now, Tina is acting like everything is ok and it's just a bunch of stuff dealing with 1, 2, 3 and not anything to do with me. But in the conversation, she was clearly very upset and said at one point she wanted to not try anymore and just forget about me.  

My predicament is this: I don't want to lose Tina as a friend because I enjoy having someone to always talk to and hang out with. But I don't feel like she is a good friend and I don't feel like I am treated the way I treat her. So a part of me knows I need to cut her off and go about my merry way. But another part of me, a HUGE part of me, is saying just don't say anything about knowing the truth and just stay friends, just be careful what you say/do. I just won't put my heart into it like I did before. I guess it would be more of a normal, every day friendship, rather than a best friend kind of thing. IDK.

This sucks. What would you do? What should I do? I'd appreciate any advice because I'm tired of dealing with this and constantly stressing over it.

Thursday, September 9, 2010

Day 6 and "Think of Me Thursday"

Today has started out as a very thought provoking day. So I will be thinking of everyone throughout the day and reading new blogs to find other great people to follow. :)

Day 6: Something you hope you never have to do.

Because I can't really think of anything right now, I hope I NEVER EVER EVER have to lay my husband or any of my children to rest. I don't have children right now but I cannot even imagine how it would feel to lose a child. With that being said, it may be selfish of me to hope to pass away before my husband, but I don't know what I would do without him. I can't imagine being alone after spending so much time with him. I am so thankful he is in a non-deployable unit and my heart breaks for those families that do lose a loved one. I just pray that there are no more deaths this year - 3 is too many.

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

~*Day 5*~

5: Something you hope to do in your life. 

Pretty simply, the biggest thing I hope to accomplish in my life right now, is to be an amazing wife and a terrific mother. I do my best to make sure Goob is taken care of and is completely happy being my husband. Some days it's a struggle and I want to give up, but other days are absolutely amazing and I'd never want to let go of that. And we're working on the chance for me to be a terrific mother. ;)

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Top Two && Hoo Are You Tuesday :)


Such a cute idea. I completely love her site and the design of everything on it. :) She posts questions each week and you then copy it to your post, change the answers, add the button, and go about your merry Tuesday. :)

So here are my answers: 

1. Do you type on a keyboard the correct way or do you peck like a cute little chick?
I actually type like normal. I don't know how, but from about the time I was in 6th grade until now (wow seems soooooo long ago), I've loved typing and am pretty good at it ... maybe like my spelling/English "skills", I got it from my mother. :)

2. Typically how long does it take you to get ready in the morning?
If I have to take a shower and dry/straighten my hair, it takes me about 45 minutes. If I took a shower the night before or I'm not drying my hair, I can be ready in 20-25 minutes. 

3. Do you prefer lip gloss or lipstick?
Lip gloss. I think I own one tube of lipstick and it was from my formal wedding, a year ago. 

4. Do you take clothes to the dry cleaner or wash them yourself even if they say dry clean only?
Depending on what the item is, I'll clean it myself. I hate going to the cleaners. But I do have several formal gowns and a few other items that I don't want messed up, so I'll take those. 

5. Do you prefer Wal Mart or Target.
Most of the time, I go to Wal Mart. But depending on what I'm getting (furniture, decorating stuff, clothes, etc.) I'll go to Target. 

This is a cute idea - picking your top two favorite things about a given subject. This week's topic:

Top 2 Things About FALL

My most favorite thing about fall is: The cooler weather. 
I was born in the fall and am convinced that I love cooler weather more than
 warmer weather because of that. I love the cooler temperatures, the beautiful leaves, 
oh oh oh, and the really cute decorations. :) 

My second most favorite thing about fall is: Thanksgiving. 
I love cooking all of the food, spending time with my family, 
just reflecting on everything that happened throughout the year, 
and really thinking about everything I've been blessed with. 


To-the-TOP Tuesday

I found this link up that I'm going to try to be a part of. I love the blogs of the hosts and the co-host! Definitely check them out! And follow me - I'm looking for more people to follow, so I will follow you back. :)

~* Day 4 *~

4. Something you have to forgive someone for. 

This is probably going to sound horrible, but quite frankly, there are a lot of things I need to forgive people for. Mostly, it revolves around people lying to me, taking advantage of me, using me, and not putting in what I put in (yes, I do expect you to give more than you receive - that's how I try to live my life). 

But there are those few other things as well. Being friends with someone I don't like ... I need to forgive and forget about that one. I try to remind myself that I can't tell people who to be friends with and who not to be friends with. But I have always had the opinion that if someone screws my friend over, I'm not friends with them, no second guesses. Even if my friend starts befriending and liking the other person, I normally don't go back to liking them. I just can't. I don't know why. So I need to forgive when it comes to my friends being friends with people I don't like or don't really want them to be friends with. I can't control that. (My inner control freak is dying right now!)

I'll also be doing a few other posts today - I love the link up/follow me days. :)