See, I have this friend, Tina, who I have been really good friends with for a really long time now. But it has constantly been
Well last night, I may have found out about a conversation between Tina and Katy - about me!!!! Not only about me, but it was about how Tina wanted to give up on being friends with me and how I had been so mean to her about things. First off, I WAS NEVER MEAN! I have been calm and nice and respectful about everything I have said to her. I've gotten to a point where I'm tired of the bullshit and her going back and forth between friends. I am tired of her talking smack about Katy and others, but then running back to Katy and being buddy buddy again. Secondly, I spoke with Tina about this situation this morning (in no way mentioning I knew about the conversation) and was trying to see if she was going to lie to me yet again, because it has constantly been "what are you doing", "oh nothing", "wanna do something", "oh not today, I'm just going to relax" - and then I find out she's not telling me the truth. AND SHE DID! SHE LIED TO ME LIKE IT WAS NOTHING! I asked if she had been able to talk to anyone else, including Katy, about the conversation we had about everything or about anything that was going on and she said no she hadn't. WHAT A FREAKING LIAR!!!! The conversation made it clear she had been talking to Katy about everything. And now, Tina is acting like everything is ok and it's just a bunch of stuff dealing with 1, 2, 3 and not anything to do with me. But in the conversation, she was clearly very upset and said at one point she wanted to not try anymore and just forget about me.
My predicament is this: I don't want to lose Tina as a friend because I enjoy having someone to always talk to and hang out with. But I don't feel like she is a good friend and I don't feel like I am treated the way I treat her. So a part of me knows I need to cut her off and go about my merry way. But another part of me, a HUGE part of me, is saying just don't say anything about knowing the truth and just stay friends, just be careful what you say/do. I just won't put my heart into it like I did before. I guess it would be more of a normal, every day friendship, rather than a best friend kind of thing. IDK.
This sucks. What would you do? What should I do? I'd appreciate any advice because I'm tired of dealing with this and constantly stressing over it.